2009 has just begun and i brought my furry birds ( pen) to school! HAHAH brenda and aby
was so amuse by it. my birds made friends with brenda's pretty unicorn hahaa

i recently read some stuff about being happy and finding happiness
so this post is kinda long so bare with me okay

according to everyone, world leaders,economic experts, and other intellectual pple. 2009 is a roller coaster with the economic depression, pay cuts, retrenchment, yadayada and it is the year of the Os( thats for me)
so really everyone is rather sure of what will happen in 2009. they cringe. everyone is scared shitless whether or not they still can keep their jobs. everyone is generally affected like kids are worried if they will get lesser pocket money or not, parent are worried if they still can provide for their family, the unretrenched are worried if they can find a decent job or not..etc. And generally pple all over the whole are scared, fearful, in pain, unhappy, disappointed etc...
and they are desperately trying very hard to find "happiness"- which is for the depression to be over and other depresion-related unpleasant things to just go away, in the amidst of all the crazy chaos and depression. everyone is wishing for depression to go away before 2010.
it is kinda impossible but still they hope. why do you still hope you know there's only a close to zero chance it might happen??
i'm not saying we should all be pessimistic and sulk at everything unpleasant but why hope when you know you're going to be disappointed and crushed like rubbish in the incinerator plant.

why not focus on being less unhappy than "more happy" because focussing on being happy is just begging for disappointment and resentment. It is like focussing on being skinny, there is no such thing as " perfectly skinny" because there's always going to be a "skinnier".
sad people can nevery be happy enough. poor people can never be rich enough.
happiness is like a concept. concept are just concepts. they arent real. And you know you cant achieve something that isn't real.
So if you cant achieve pure true happiness why not focus on your "unhappiness" instead. Like think about all the things that make you unhappy and do something about it- and fixing the the things that is within your control.
you cant make O levels exam disappear for good but, you can study very hard for it and ace it and kick its ugly baboon butt back to England ( mel , haha)

you could get rid of all the clothes that make you think/feel ugly or fat. You could spent more time with people truly love and appreciate, and spent less time with fake friends. You could get rid of the mess of junk in your room that is unsightly and bothers the crap out of you. You could spent more time alone. You could tell a person who annoys the crap out of you that he or she is very annoying and to stop being annoying. You could go to church more often and regularly. You could spent more time reading your favourite book.
Just do it. if we work on being less unhappy, we will be happier than we were before isn't it? To be less unhappy. Isn't that what we ask for? it's all relative.

so take that, 2009.