A sign that you're no longer a kid: you enjoy watching channel newsasia

a few days ago i was at home lazing around watching tv. channel 5 was showing teenage mutant ninja turtles the animation movie. all the other channels were showing equally crappy stuff (i dont have cable). so i thought" i gonnna try channel newsasia "
CNN was showing ' the couch ' it's a programme about entrepreneurs , successful people talking about life , business etc while sitting on a comfy couch.
Dr Georgia Lee ( some v famous singaporean aesthetic doctor that pumps botox into faces) and some other short guy who is also her good friend made an appearance on the show.
i was shockingly interested by the show. it was an eye-opener. there is so much to learn from these pple. i like watching CNN now. not because of that one programme. there are so many interesting programmes about entrepreneurs and stuff around the world like japan hour. i actually enjoy watching the news. it's like im becoming like my parents watching cnn after work. i guess there is no need to fight for the remote anymore haha
i feel like my parents i feel so old or grown-up (in a more positive light)
i am off the watching funny videos of "people falling down" on youtube to recapture my youth
ciao

poly is abt to start in april. i dont wna it to start so soon. i like having hols.
crap i havent post my orange letter . deadline in tmr. this is not awesome. im such a kuku bird.
this week will be so busy gosh so many birthdays and stuff to do.

Mr ng tc pass away a few days ago. life is so fragile. i never thought he would just go like that this is so unexpected. it made me realise how vulnerable life actually is. anyone at anywhere at anytime can just go like that. it could be a car accident, food poisoning or a heart attack. though in mr ng case it was suicide. i dont know why he did what he did. life is so precious and we only live it once. there is always a solution to every problem. it was so unfortunate. Mr ng was not even 40 and he was the HOD of maths. he had a good job He had a long way ahead of him and a path brightly lit with opportunities. Mr ng, you will be dearly missed by all. if there is someone whom you know, is suicidal or morbidly depressed or suffering from a serious case of depression. show some care and concern to that person, you might be preventing the worst from happening and saving a precious life

rest in peace Mr ng

“What does it profit a man to gain the whole world, yet forfeit his soul? Or what will a man give in exchange for his soul? " matthew16:26

“selling our soul” to the devil, the reality is we actually do it. How many times in our lives have we literally sold our souls, turning from what we knew was God’s will to fulfill our will?

Every time you choose to rebel against God, you are selling yourself. The sad reality is that you always sell yourself cheap. What you give up, versus what you get is never worth it. “What does it profit a man to gain the whole world, yet forfeit his soul?”

in the end that if we deal with the devil, we lose. No matter what we may get, it is not worth our soul. Even if we had everything we wanted in this life, even if we had all this world had to offer, what is it worth in the light of eternity?

You see my friend, this life as we know it is very brief. It is but for a season. Eternity is for everlasting. Our focus, our goals, our motivation should not be solely focused on this existence, but our everlasting existence. That is why the most important decision we will ever make in this life is where we will spend that eternity. Let me say, if you do not know where your eternity will be spent, you can make that decision now, by choosing to follow Jesus all the way.

Almost without realizing it, we often sell ourselves to the devil. Just by choosing to go your way instead of God's way is already a form of of selling your soul to the devil, you have rebellied against God by doing so and it just makes it easier for the devil to get a hold of you till one day he will eventually get the whole of you, your soul, your everything ,completely. The Lord told us clearly, you cannot serve two masters. Each time we make a decision, we are choosing which master to serve. We will either serve the god of this world, or the God of the universe. When we choose the god of this world, we are never satisfied, never happy, it never really works. When we serve God Almighty, we then can know the true joy, peace, and abundance this life can offer. It works. I will be praying for you to choose God. You see, when you choose the god of this world, it requires you to pay a price. When you choose God your Creator, the price has already been paid. He says, “Come all, all you who are thirsty, come to the waters; and you who have no money, come, buy and eat!” You see, Jesus already paid the price.

how much sense this makes. i really am guilty for choosing to follow my plans instead of God's plan so many times. maybe the problem is i dont trust enough to let God really use me and take control of my life. and maybe so many other things. i really am trying to really find that balance i need in my life.
Dear Lord i know i dont trust enough to let you completely hold the reins in my life, and i am so sorry for not listening to You so many times. For not taking a breather out of my life to listen to Your soft calming voice. For insisting on my ways and not going Yours. I am so sorry for wanting my independence so much. It's so hard for me to give it up.I want it so bad, it's pains me great deal to give it up.It is probably is the most difficult and hardest thing to do in my life. Lord, i ask for your forgiveness.. Pls help me let learn to trust You abit more each day and completely trust You with my life, by fully surrending the reins into Your hands one day. I pray for that Day of Total Submission to come soon.

in Jesus name i pray .Amen

a few days ago

me: mummy my left eye v pain, ouch it hurts like hell i dont why. and recently my eyes have been quite dry

mum: i tell u to sleep early and drink water, u dont listen to me

me: MOM. u tell me that all the time. u think if u have a brain tumour or aids u drink water and sleep early and it's ok? u will be alright? i dont wanna listen to u. (annoyed aldy)

mum: did u eat the box of chocolate?

me: yea so?

mum: must be the chooclate!u everyday eat chocolate, so heaty confirm eye pain!

me: so u're saying that eating chocolates give me eye pain is that it?

mum: yesaand i tell u aldy bllah blah blah the usual naggy stuff middle aged woman like to harp on.

me: ARGHHHHHH U MAKE NO SENSE!omg that is the stupidiest thing i ever heard ( #!@$)


and i didnt talk to her for the whole day.

is ur mum like that too? always making no sense at all in response to the things u have just said? does ur mum always blame u when u dont feel well saying it is ur ( insert bad habit that DOESNT in anyway ,could have possibly cause the sickness u're suffering from) that is it the one that is causing the problem and it's all your fault and starts nagging at u till the sun comes up the next morn?

pls tell me this is normal mum behaviour