today had dinner with can germ mel huei min mandy frerry wenbin lay elgin at marina square ate at some jap restaurant called ryochi something the food was not bad. then took some pics. later everyone went home except me and mandy. we went to raffles city and ate ben & jerry hawhaw
and we saw something really gross. on our way back, on the train. there was this like couple about like mid 30s. u know the station at cityhall is super packed right. this annoying couple shared like one seat. the woman was sitting on her boyfriend's lap. omg pda man. the woman was like laughing and squirming about in his lap. which makes look everything so wrong. and the guy looked like he was in semi-heaven or something.uber gross! they did in front of everbody. totally oblivious to the people around. they have no sense of social ettiquette. they just book a hotel. police should really like fine couples like that.

i am thinking of dropping my pure sciences. it just scares me to death that there was only one a1 for chem and one a1 for physics through out the whole cohort last year. and a few lucky a2s.
crap i am so not ready for this.i cant make this decision soon after cny! RRRWW! what if i get b3 for both sciences omg. shit i rather do combine and get a1. omg iam quite dumb in physics. and shitty chem spa is gonna probably pull my overall chem score L-O-W. bloody hellllllllll.

i feel so stressed about this damn thing. cos like pure science will open more doors for you in the future blahblah and so useful in jc. BUT i dont wanna go jc. i wanna go poly and do like a business course or something. so really pure science is really not a must here. but what if i do get banana 3 for combine science. omg i would rather do pure. the top student was puredropto combine. and like so many pure droppers got AAAAAAs for their combine.

what if i suddenly decided to not work in the business field and work with medicine and chemicals or become a dietitian. and i realise " oh crap i didnt take pure chem when i was 15 i guess im stuck with this shitty job i have ." and i am stuck with in the business field till the day i die.

MORONIC EGGS! whywhywhywhy does moe have to force us to make decision that will affect the course of our entire life at BLOODY 16 .

freaks. do i look like i know what i want in life? what i want in my future? im still young and having fun. i know shit about nothing. i cannot believe i cried that night thinking about dropping pure.. so so so lame and dumb i know . arghhh. pls give me some advice people.


ps. i got 69 for chem overall last year and 58 for physics. advise pls!

i wanna get engaged

I LOVE FRIDAYS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

TGIF! i fell sick yesterday with like fever and a retarded funny-feeling throat and nose.
you have to know how i fell sick. it all started wednesday night. i was mugging for amaths reassessmt and i decided to take a break. so i went to the fridge and got some cranberry juice out to drink. then i realise like that i shouldnt be taking breaks since i had alot left to cover. so drank my cranberry juice faster.i overestimated the amt of juice my mouth can take in at one time and lifted my cup higher.my mouth couldnt take inthe juice fast enough so some of the juice splashed on my shirt and some went right into my nostrils! omg! when you have juice stuck in your nose pipe( whatever pipe you call it) you'll feel weird and funny.i had this 'thingy' stuck between my nose and my brain- you know that feeling when food go down the wrong tube and after awhile i couldnt blow my nose properly and my throat became funny and kinda stuck. not long the fever came. then my face flushed a beyooteeful scarlet and then i felt freezing cold. LOLOLOL so stupid right. fell sick because of cranberry juice. joke of the year lol

2009 has just begun and i brought my furry birds ( pen) to school! HAHAH brenda and aby
was so amuse by it. my birds made friends with brenda's pretty unicorn hahaa

i recently read some stuff about being happy and finding happiness
so this post is kinda long so bare with me okay

according to everyone, world leaders,economic experts, and other intellectual pple. 2009 is a roller coaster with the economic depression, pay cuts, retrenchment, yadayada and it is the year of the Os( thats for me)
so really everyone is rather sure of what will happen in 2009. they cringe. everyone is scared shitless whether or not they still can keep their jobs. everyone is generally affected like kids are worried if they will get lesser pocket money or not, parent are worried if they still can provide for their family, the unretrenched are worried if they can find a decent job or not..etc. And generally pple all over the whole are scared, fearful, in pain, unhappy, disappointed etc...
and they are desperately trying very hard to find "happiness"- which is for the depression to be over and other depresion-related unpleasant things to just go away, in the amidst of all the crazy chaos and depression. everyone is wishing for depression to go away before 2010.
it is kinda impossible but still they hope. why do you still hope you know there's only a close to zero chance it might happen??
i'm not saying we should all be pessimistic and sulk at everything unpleasant but why hope when you know you're going to be disappointed and crushed like rubbish in the incinerator plant.

why not focus on being less unhappy than "more happy" because focussing on being happy is just begging for disappointment and resentment. It is like focussing on being skinny, there is no such thing as " perfectly skinny" because there's always going to be a "skinnier".
sad people can nevery be happy enough. poor people can never be rich enough.
happiness is like a concept. concept are just concepts. they arent real. And you know you cant achieve something that isn't real.
So if you cant achieve pure true happiness why not focus on your "unhappiness" instead. Like think about all the things that make you unhappy and do something about it- and fixing the the things that is within your control.
you cant make O levels exam disappear for good but, you can study very hard for it and ace it and kick its ugly baboon butt back to England ( mel , haha)

you could get rid of all the clothes that make you think/feel ugly or fat. You could spent more time with people truly love and appreciate, and spent less time with fake friends. You could get rid of the mess of junk in your room that is unsightly and bothers the crap out of you. You could spent more time alone. You could tell a person who annoys the crap out of you that he or she is very annoying and to stop being annoying. You could go to church more often and regularly. You could spent more time reading your favourite book.
Just do it. if we work on being less unhappy, we will be happier than we were before isn't it? To be less unhappy. Isn't that what we ask for? it's all relative.

so take that, 2009.