hello! i am doing english now. ugh typing out a compo. anyway huei min was uber sweeeet! :D she bought this really humongous spongebob cushion for me from malaysia,truly asia. she bought it to schooool for me today . And it's really cheap like 26 RM. JUST LOVE HER <333


i went on a shoppping spreeeee during the weekend. i bought a long khaki top from zara, hope it goes with my leggings, sneakers,manly belt (ha!) and a hoodie :D and alot of shoelace

there were so other things i was eyeing on but i was brokkkkeeee. nevermind i will get them soon

i think i am going to fall sick soon. my nose is giving me crap. ugh

i just found out that dexian actually does ballroom dancing ,hiphop, and ballet! what a shocker i mean ,ballet, it's really brave for a guy. gutsy boy


ps. bring bring trash bag to school. one for me, one for popoto


i am hungry now. i want bread with cheese. mom says i have to finish the nutella first. i dont like chocolate now. ugh

what's wrong with me i feel so down. i feel so exhausted even though i stayed home the whole day. i feel the lack of motivation to study stupid maths. i am expecting a call from my-to-be maths tutor but she hasnt ring. there so many things i wanna scream about.


i need a breathing space.
there's a hole in me i cant explain
i cant stand this
i cant stand your complaints
i am so sick of hearing you whine but i suck it up
i wish you would understand.but it's not possible
i want to run but not a place in mind
i need someone tell me it's okay
i need someone to tell me it will all be over soon
i wish you could be less judgemental
i wish you could more responsible
i wish you could you put your feet in my shoes and see how it feels
i wish you'll know when to shut and how
i wish i could help but i cant
because of that i am afraid to tell you
i wish this vulnerable feeling will go away
but i know it will stay for the next few years
i wish i could voice it out
but i dont it because it wont be easy for you
i cant help but wait
i wish i had a shoulder to cry on

i wish this never happened
i wish all this never happened

it's so funny funny yellow sunny


dinner : boiled boneless chicken ,veggie and fuji apple

alibaba! mamamia! so proud of myself for sticking with detox for 4 days leh.

i do feel better now less brain fogs.healthier body and mind and soul....
i am so high now so retarded now :D

my stupid brother took my hairdryer to genting can someone smack him. i want to slap him i cant live without my dryer. i have to towel-dry! fan-dry . so sickening. damn long.

he wants the dryer to spike his ugly fugly hair. so metrosexual. GAYNESS. he has severe mental retartdation.he fails to figure out that the hotel will provide a hairdryer. that's the basic thing.they have to . SMACKSLAPsquishhim.agaggagagag



stuuuuupid jaime is baccck. she deserves some spanking. seriously.
i'll break all her high-heels oneday.

plain white T's-A lonely september



I'm sittin' here all by myselfjust tryin' to think of something to do
Tryin' to think of something, anything
just to keep me from thinking of you
But you know it's not working out'cause
you're all that's on my mind
One thought of you is all it takes
to leave the rest of the world behind
[Chorus]Well I didn't mean for this to go as far as it did
And I didn't mean to get so close and share what we did

And I didn't mean to fall in love, but I did
And you didn't mean to love me back, but I know you did
I'm sittin' here tryin' to convince myself
that you're not the one for me
But the more I think, the less I believe itand the more
I want you here with me
You know the holidays are coming up

I don't want to spend them alone
Memories of Christmas time with you
will just kill me if I'm on my own


[Chorus]Well I didn't mean for this to go as far as it did
And I didn't mean to get so close and share what we did
And I didn't mean to fall in love, but I did
And you didn't mean to love me back
I know it's not the smartest thing to dowe just can't seem to get it right
But what I wouldn't give to have one more chance tonight
One more chance tonight
I'm sittin' here tryin' to entertain myself with this old guitar
But with all my inspiration gone it's not getting me very far
I look around my room and everything I see reminds me of you
Oh please, baby won't you take my hand we've got nothing left to prove

[Chorus]Well I didn't mean for this to go as far as it did
And I didn't mean to get so close and share what we did
And I didn't mean to fall in love, but I did
And you didn't mean to love me back, but I know you did
And I didn't mean to meet you thenwe were just kids
And I didn't mean to give you chillsthe way that I kiss
And I didn't mean to fall in love, but I did
And you didn't mean to love me back but I know you did
Don't say you didn't love me back 'cause you know you did

No, you didn't mean to love me back
But you did

i am posting because stupid candies forced me too. then and only then, she will send me the song. feel like smacking her.

i think candies has a crush on ctr bf.she keeps asking about him.


ps. i saw some horny lorny man at mac.i think he's the one for candies.
candies,forget chilli go for the one. he's too right for you to be true.

i failed the detox diet. mel's fridge was to good to resist. so i will be starting monday. whoo! the brain fogs are coming back. i just have maths tuition. she sucks. i am going to change her. my dad still thinks kenneth is the best. feel so fed up talking to him. aiyayah.

a miracle happened just now. my wonderful church friend told me about her maths wonderful tutor:) too good to be true. she guarantees that she is super effective and really confident that she will bring me an A1! God must have told her to tell me about this tutor. cos i really didnt know what to do with my dad and the stupid tutor. suddenly she chats me up and we end up talking about tuition teachers.and i realised that she had kenneth's brother as her tutor before but she dropped him.funny huh. some pple learn better on a personal level if only my dad will get that into his super uber stubborn thick brain.

jookiat you suck. you fail as a good science tutor.

omg i am sosososososososoososososososo pissedddddddd. somepplejustdontknowwhattosayandwhentoshut.agaggagaggag
smackyousmackyou



i am nerding the night.

i am going on a detox diet. feel better in 2 weeks.wow huh.
i feel so tired and dizzy lately. and i have many brain fogs.Sometimes i don't know what i am doing.feels like shit especially when solving maths equations my head just spins.... feel like it is doing some stupid ballet. feel so burden with toxic. for more information go to womentowomen.com

omg. so freaking angry. i hav shitty choir tmr.when the weather is so nice to sleep in and so bfy. i am notnotnotnotnotnotnotnot going.



food to avoid: fried food,chocolate,soft drinks, sweets, sugar, proccessed food (no instant noodle), no snacking. snack on fresh fruits and veggie .

note to self: try to avoid anything fried in the canteen. cut down on wanton noodles,hokkien mee,nasi lemark, fried beehoon.the burgers at the milo store. try to have dinner at home. buy more fruits. dont buy fries and chickens on fried food days. throw away my potato chips in the fridggggge. dont drink the root beer at home. drink peel fresh fruit juice everyday. absolutely no snacking on unhealthy stuff during tuition( cannot be influence by candies) bring nuts to school to snack on the healthy ones with omega s fatty acids. drink vitagen to promote a healthy digestive system.yoghurt mannnnn. all this for 2 weeks I CAN DO IT.


if you happen to see a greedy dione stuffing her mouth with whatever forbidden food, pls smack her hand snatch her food and tell her it is for her own good. you will be greatly appreciated and loved. <333333



starting on saturday! wish me loads of luck.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MANDY!

my dear menti, thanks for all the effort you have put in for 2e3 and all. no one can do it quite like you honey.you're sweet 15 whoo! you're a wonderful friend. you deserve medal. plus a trophy *shinyshiny* lovelovelove you




argh argh agrh.i failed amaths logarithm test. shit i got a freakin 20 for chinese. i feel so disappointed in myself. with a maths. i totally did not touch my chinese textbk this year so 20 was kinda coming my way. but maths i studied i studied studied so hard i just dont understand.
i need home tuition. not freakin kenneth at freakin queesway. SMACK MY DAD. kenneth worked freakin miracles on my brother but not me. he just wouldnt believe me. it took me dont know how many buckets of saliva to convince him to let me have home tuition.

i called many tuition agencies so i will be starting intensive maths tuition.i will go throught every topic and do TYS. i will perfect my maths before term 2 starts.




THE PROMISES I HAVE MADE TO MYSELF

i will not go on shopping sprees.
i will stay home as much as i can to study.
i am going to love maths like it is my boyfriend my love my husband
i will limit my duration of television and computer and sleep.
i will be a cool nerd.
i will do a fanastic job in completing assignments and hmwk
i will not read story book till early in the morning.
i will manage my time and use it wisely
i will revise every subject, every subject really
i will revise do hmwk on everyday of the holiday. going out all day will not be an excuse not to do revision and hmwk.i will do hmwk while sleeping if i have to.
i will also have fun during the hols.



everyone who wants to buck up should do this. really stick to this. you cant go wrong. gotta sleeeppppp now!




ps. God, pls help me make all the above possible.without you i can do nothing.

MY MUM IS JUST SO CUTE AND SO YELLOW! tell u what she did. she left a note for me on my table. she wrote it on a yellow napkin cos she couldnt find paper . funny i have tons on cute note papers. she didnt see la huh. her handwriting so nice neat and motherly:) and and the cute part is when she sign off. she wrote : Mum (next line) 4 march 9.00am so formal like writing letter to the some president.

going to keep it too cute already. <3<3






when shopping with my dear popoto*(candies) on sunday. went high on the shopping spreeee! i bought a fishermen shirt so hot la. cancan bought a black formal dressie.

we went into a scary shop.and candies looking ridiculously sexy attracted the eyes of some horny lorny indian man. kept checking her out with the horny eyes while i was trying on the fisherman shirt. and you know what when i was adjusted my fishermen shirt, horny told me unbutton a few buttons , tie the front so it will look better. eeeeeeeeeee ! so freaky . i paid for the shirt and we fled as fast as we could from the horny.


ps. log test tmr .i dont know a single shit. God help me